The night of the full moon.

Wowie! Tonight was so exciting!
It was a full moon, and i did have a feeling that something exciting might happen, but i had no idea what.
Since it was music talent night, us teens all went to the coffee shop to have some karaoke and snack, etc, but we ended up turning on some really cool family music, and danced and mashed and sang so loud! It was awesome!
After that, we started singing slow songs and love songs, and i went to the balcony and gazed at the full moon, so beautiful! And i sang love songs to Jesus an had some loving Jesus time! Was so cool!
Ahhh..thank you Jesus! I love You!!!!!!!!!!!
The moon was so nice, and the sky was so clear and beautiful, with nice wind and all! I will never forget this night!

Sick

For the past few days, i got sick with a fever, headache and cold.
Maybe because it finally started to get cooler, maybe it was because i wasn't getting much sleep for the past month, or maybe the lord wanted to show me something.
I have to admit i was being a little slack of spending time with the lord for a few days, and i have been going through a lot recently, with my six months over, the enemy did hit me hard with some stuff.
But it helped me and gave me some time to think, pray and get desperate with the lord again, and it was a blessing.
The next assignment for the XFDTP came out, and it was just what i needed and is similar to one of the battles i'm going through right now.
I'm getting better, and i'm thankful the lord put me through all this once more so i could recommit and reconnect with him. TYJ!

I know.....

I know that only the Lord can truly help
I know others can lead and guide me
But I know only the Lord can truly lead and guide

I know that when i fail myself, others and others fail me
The Lord is the only one who will not fail me
I know when I'm imperfect and others are imperfect
Only the Lord can and always will be perfect

I know that when others fail to show me a good sample
Only the Lord can show me a true sample
I know when I fail to love and others fail to love
Only the Lord can truly love me

I know when others discourage me and I get discouraged
Only the Lord can truly encourage me
I know when no one else is here for me in my road of life,
when all else and all others fail me
Only the Lord can truly be with me, and stick with me till the end.
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6 Months are over.

This morning i woke up, and i realised that my six month period was over today.
I thought back of how it went, and so many things sure did happen during that time.
There was sakura witnessing , which was totaly new for me, then there was a new golden week thing that i participated in, then it was the FDTP, which had a lot of commitments that i made there, then the summer and matsuri's and so many other small, or rather big things that happened during those six months.
They felt kind of long for me, but it must have been actually really short.
It felt kind of the same way when i woke up at my 17th birthday, and i always think about that song, i forgot the title, but i think it was called"Jesus is here" or something.

When you were young they told you, you'd grow up stog and proud
Get a PHD, drive an SUV, and buy our own house
But now your 17, and everything turned to shades of gray
Everyone seems so confused, running in circles everyday
But my child, my child, it don't have to be this way
My child, my child, oh believe me when i say, Jesus is here.

Go to college everyone says, and make your parents proud
Get a big shot job in the city and make sure your walking with
the crowd
But they 4got to tell you that money, won't folllow you when u die
So step into the light, cus i'm what truly satisfies, satisfies
Jesus is here, let me dry your tears, oh Jesus is here
Baby don't you fear.

And if you should fall down and darkness surrounds you,
just call on my name, and I will be with you, i will be with you
You, let me dry your tears, oh Jesus is here, baby don't you fear.

Since i became 17, that song has meant so much to me, and has helped me sometimes understand how 17 is like.
So anyways, please pray for me so that things will go smoothly and that I'll be able to become a full time voting members, etc.
It'a a strange feeling to acomplish or finsh something, but once i get the hang of it, it feels good.

The ITAMI show and Bazar!

Today, we all woke up early and went to do a show in the middle of all the heat and summery breeze.
It was lots fun, but i got sun burnt a little, and man it waas really really hot.!
My face got kind of damaged by the bleach of the pool, and since i was swimming with just a t shirt and shorts, when i got wet, it turned see through and ppl were staring at me and i had to cover my boobs to avoid attention.hehehehhe...
anyways, there was also a small bazar held there, and i got this really cute dress for only 100 yen, and a really nice coat for 100yen too...then.. i got really long and a cute skirt for 300yen, which was kind of expensive but worth it, and then i bought a little pink handbag for 50 yen! and it was still brandnew in the package!!! was so cute! I also bought a tanktop for 100yen, though it wasn't the best, red just really drew my attention, and i couldn't resist it.
so yeah, even thought today ws a busy and hot and eventful day, tired and exhasted, i feel very happy i was able to go and be a help and be a witness and have fun! TYJ!

Mimi is back!

Mimi came back this morning, and i was really happy to see her again.
I missed her a lot, and while she was gone, things did get more busy and a lot of stuff happened.
I thought about the times when i wanted to tell her something and realised she was gone, and wouldn't come back for a few weeks, and things became kind of harder for me at first, but the lord taught me amny things through it, and i'm so thankful that even though i had to go through so much, i learned some more.
i love and appreciate Mimi very much, and i'm so happy to be able t have her again.
I love you Mimi!

Commitment.

I thought about so much today.
it was such a long day, or so it seemed.
Waking up at 6:30 in the morning, taking a walk for and hour, making breakfast, taking a shower, eating, wordtime, taking the kids for wordtime, taking more wordtime, and cooking lunch, etc.
The morning seemed very long, and i had no idea it would just be the begining.
after taking 30 minutes of quiet time, i exercised for an hour or more, then took a shower, did school, cleaned up the room, did the laundry, made yummy bread for breakfast, did a huge clean up job in the kitchen, organising stuff, serving snack, and so much more that i have done today that i do not wish to contain.
All that to say, i think about the past few days, or weeks and see how my life's been heading and going, i feel like i've learned so much, and i know that the Lord is helping me.
I made a commitment today, in fact, i make commmitments almost everyday, but i felt different today.
Not that i suddenly got the inspiration or passion or anything, but i felt content by commiting myself to the Lord.
Through my busy busy day, the Lord has helped me so much, and it was only through him that i was able to make it through, though i did make some mistakes. he gave me the strength, wisdom, anointing, courage, faith, love, and humility to try some stuff out, and though i was corrected and shepherded, hey, that's what we're all here for! So I am happy and will gladly recieve correction because i know it's necessary in my life and everyone's life.
Oh Jesus, i'm exhasted after this long day, but thank you so much for all that you have done for me and for all that i was able to accomplish!
I think he also showed me how much he loved me when he showed the the magnificient sunset! so beautiful and i could only say, "I love You Jesus!" I was gald that i had made right choices in my life for him today.

6 Years since 9/11

I woke up this morning, thinking if something big happened today, and i realised, that it's been exactly 6 years since the 9/11.
I remember it clearly, i was 11 then, but i was pretty shocked and wondered why such a thing happened.
All those memories of news and TV series and even movies about the 9/11 flooded back into my mind for a while, and it didn't go out of my mind.
I sat up and i opened my PNP book, and i heard from the Lord. He said he wanted me to pray for those who had passed on that day, and also pray for their loved ones and people who were influenced by that tragic event, and i did.
I, for some reason, felt like i was praying so desperately, like i was praying for a family or friend, or loved one, someone very important in my life, even though i didn't know any of those people.
I pray that something like the 9/11 would never happen again, all those innocent people dying and others getting persecuted, and all that money beng wasted, and so many people die and perish even now, even though not physically, but spiritually.
Thank you Lord that i was able to pray for them, so they might be able to know you and your love.
So many thoughts about the 9/11 ran through my head today, and it must be a another sign of Her downfall.

Busy busy busy, work work work, problems problems problems!

I woke up as usual this morning, but maybe i got up from the wrong side of the bed.
We had prayer morning this morning, and though i was sensing that the enemy would attack me more today, i didn't think it would be this intense.
My job as a kitchen deacon was quite a show, and there were so many stuff to do, running around like a three ring circus, going from people to people, telling people this and that, people coming to me and telling me to do this or that, explaing this or that..and on and on it went.
Up until night snack, and i feel exhausted, but i used the weapon of openess to shepherding and i tried to stay open and did my best, even though i'm exhasted and worn out, at least i think i am.
Anyways, i think that the kitchen deacon is a huge job, and there's just so much to learn and learn and learn, and i'm thankful that at least i'm learning and learning.
TYJ for the ministry you have given me.

Healed.

I woke up this morning, not being able to sleep so well, and feeling really tired, and after taking some time with the lord, i got ready for my morning walk. The winds blew strongly and smoothly.
I had a burn on my face since 4 days ago, and they soon turned into freckle looking things on my face, but still bothered me.
But i looked in the mirror this morning, and realized that they were gone!
I was so happy that they were healed and my face had cleared up again.
Though the day was pretty busy and i'm tired as a rabbit jumping around all day, and i feel like i have an old lady's back, i feel so happy and thankful that i can smile again.....of course i can smile anytime, but this is a smile of thankfulness to jesus! I love You!

Onions!

The last thing that i did for work today wa, cutting onions, and onions are a bummer!
Everytime i cut em, they make me shed a river of tars, and it makes me feel kind of emotional, like i'm actually really crying because something bad or sad happened to me.
For a long time i've been trying to figure out and solve the problem of crying when cutting onions, but it just dosen't seem to work.
Maybe my eyes are just really sensitive or something, so anyways, i really want to know what i can do in order to not cry when cutting onions.

Tired!

For the past 2 week, or so i think, ever since Mimi left, or maybe ever since i came back from the roadtrip, i havne't been able to sleep much at night, and it's really bothering me recently.
It's like i just toss and turn every noght, trying to find rest, which if lucky finally come to me at around 2 or 3 o clock in the morning.
And that only gives me a few hours of sleep, and aking up at 7:30 feeling really tired.
But this morning, i really thought i have to do something quick, cus i slept at like 2:30, and woke up before 6 in the morning and couldn't go back to sleep, but at least i used my time wisely by exercising and making breakfast, etc.
Anyways, all that to say, with all the work that needs to be done everyday and all, i just don't think i'll be able to keep it up foe so long.
Please pray for me.

A new start.

Today ws the begining of a new day, and i felt like i did so much.
I started to exercise and workout again, since i was slack on it during the summer.
Our home started a new schedule, and i pray that it will work.
I did a lot of work, including cooking, and i started my school again, something i feel like i haven't done in a long time.
I was also feeling a little down, but i was able to chat with Lee, and that cheered the rest of my evening. i still had so much to do, but he enouraged me and sent me a song about being happy and all, and it was very cute. he also sent me a clip of him and his friends doing a dance, and i'm sure that was cool too.
So now i will end my thought of today with a yawn, and with a cheery smile!
Thank You Jesus!

Freeday!

It was freeday today, and i woke up at 11: AM
I was only able to sleep for about 7 hours, since my mind was full of thoughts the night before andi couldn't sleep. it was a really uncomfortable night. these days i can hardly even remember the dreams that i had, and i realsed that there's just so much going on in life that maybe i don't have enough space in my brain to contain it. Ma anyways, i chatted and read, spent time in nature and relaxed, also prayed for loved ones for the rest of the day, and i thought, " I'm tired." dosen't make so much sense, but i am very tired right now.
I've been trying to keep up with my assignments and PNP's from the XFDTP, and trying to spend more time with the Lord, and i'm glad i was able to find someone who would push me and help me in that area, as well as me pushing and reminding my friend. Haaaaaa...sigh...Yawn.
I love you Jesus, and now i'm off to bed.

Lee

I was chatting with Lee for about an hour today, and i began to realize that we had so much in common.
Lee is a very good friend of mine and i've, well, logically known him since i was seven, but for the past year i've been getting to know him more and more, and i enjoy those times very much.
Not only is he a friend, but more than that, like, he's just more than a friend to me. He's always really sweet and encouraging, helps me in a lot of stuff i go through, and he's also very understanding too. I thank the Lord everyday for him, and also pray for him like i would for a loved one or someone very special. I love you so so much Lee, and i think of you often. I hope you don't mind me posting a photo of you. I just think your the coolest guy i've ever met so far, and i can truely say that.

Today.

It was a very strange day today, not much happened, but so much was going on around me. TTL for that beautiful time with you though.
i wathed the beauties around me and thought, "wow". that was all i was able to say.