Another one of my thoughts

Here's another thought i wrote down when i was 15, when i was thinking about life and how short it is and how the time passed by so quickly and how i don't want to regret about whatever choice i make in life.

What will I have Left
I wonder what will happen if i pass away one day. I wonder if there will be sorrow and pain to loved ones? But for me, i'd wonder what i've done with life, and think if i was really satisfied about the way things happened. I knew what bad i did and would regret those things, but i'd regret more that i couldn't change, change the past and the wrong i did in my life. I wonder if my loved ones would think about the good or things that i've done in life, and what good i've accomplished when i'm gone.
Unexpectedly but true, i can die any time. there is always a chance and
risk of that. Oh what will i have to give away when i die? Oh what will i have to share back to my loved ones and friends? It hurts the most to think that i have to go and leave them someday, until the day of eternity comes. But this is life and this is how it will always go. Nobody can change me or make me go the right path. Everything will depend on me and me alone. By the time i am full grown, the choice is up to me. But i am so afraid to make the wrong ones, for truly
i do not wish for me or anyone else to have to suffer the consequences of my choices. My time is short, and i know there is not much time to do everything i want to on life. I don't want to feel regret when i pass away., so i'd better do my best right away. There's no choice but that for me or to suffer much more afterwards much more. I want life to be an accomplished one, a beautiful one, even though i will regret some things that i have done. Oh what will i have left? I want joy, peace, love, and happiness to share with, even though i were to pass away tomorrow. I want o live everyday as if it were my last, because thats true. Then i will have something to leave behind that is good, then i will not have to regret anymore.